Child Of God

Thanks Giving and Reflection

2007-05-16T01:05:00.000-07:00

Wow it's already May now and half the year is gone!This show that times really flies and it show that how long i never write my blog. Well here's the updates of my particulars. During this half a year lots of things had happened and there is both happy and sad ones. But the one that i can remember one are not much as more sad things happened than good one. Two months ago i had not been sleeping well rather say that i never sleep at all and things got worse i had a relapsed from depression and i was very stress dealing with works and studies really made me feel very stress up. Due to this issue i decided to resign from my work and do other things. At first i was worry about my income as i'm not working and there was lots of things in my mind but i really thank God for his amazing work that he had done in my life during that toughest time he had actually opened up another way for me. During my resting period in April my aunty told me that Kumon was looking for assistant and marker so i went to the one that was near place and i went for interview. Surprisingly after i went to the interview i recevied call from the centre chief instuctor and i was accepted i was happy all thanks to the great creator of our lord Jesus Christ for his grace and mercy through this incident i have greater faith in Him and trust that He will use me to do greater work for his Kingdom. Dear heavenly father thanks for the things that you have blessed me and also your promises and assurance that i'm able to walk out from the darkness and trusting you that you will be with me in whatever things i do. Amen !

Depression

2007-04-23T22:41:00.000-07:00

It's has been a long time since my last blog.Recently many things have happenned and it kinda make me feel sad. Three weeks ago i have a relapse on my depression condition and due to my condition i had to stop work for a mth so i have no other way i resigned and rest at home. Although things seem to look rather hopeless , i still would say that our Almighty God is really working in my life . Praise the Lord! I have left my previous job and the next moment i found a job at Kumon and i am working there as a marker and best of all it's near my place. God is really Great and He knows what i want.

Stress

2006-11-10T09:43:00.000-08:00

It' had been a month since i resigned from my work.Things started to get out of control i have no income coming and my expense is going up so many bills to handle ( What's to do) very depressed.Sent out almost 10 resume but no calls from them only a few got back but the job don't suit me.on top of it seeing my parent especially my mum had to fork out money for monthly medical bill really make my heartache cos all her earning she has, had given almost half tomy medical expenses and she left nothing for herself and this really made me very sad.How i wished i can handle this medical bill myself!I'm getting more and more irritated cos couldn't find job and all the endless bills had to pay really made me very stress and sad.Worst still my parents cannot understand me and keep thinking that i not looking for job this really made very angry.Almost quarral with my mum everyday i really hope this will end soon.Hope that i will can a job soon with the help from NorthWest CDC.Really hope that everything will end soon.Praying hard!

Resting Period

2006-09-10T12:35:00.000-07:00

Finally got discharge from hospital now on 3 weeks MC.During my stay in hospital i had been thinking of a solution whether to stay on in my job or resigned and at last i decide to quite the job and look for the other.Hope everything will turn out fine for me.

Hospitalisation

2006-08-16T22:18:00.000-07:00

It's had been a long time since i last blog.I was admitted to hospital yesterday due to gastric pain.It had been a long time since i was admitted again with the same problem.I'm feeling distress about my work and health.I had just started on my new job not long and now i'm laying in hospital( not knowing when i will be discharging) VERY STRESS! Worry about my job cos DCM told me that i have to leave the job if i never brushed up my computer skill within 2 weeks how can no one coaching also everyday have so much work to do how to learn everyone busy with their work and i 'm trying my best to learn how can i learnt everything within 2 weeks that's impossible!Really very frustrated.Don't know whether to resigned or stay on.HUh just let it be can't think of so many things now.Well, now just want to recover fast and get discharge.

A Time Of Reflection

2006-06-20T13:50:00.000-07:00

Hmm..............it has been a loong time since i last blog.Well many things had happened during the past five months, ever since i had a failure in relationship i never thought of going into any relationship anymore until i meet him.I do not know whether our relationship is a stable one or jus another crush with one another.He is a NUS grad doing medicine.Our relationship is very complicated it happen because of a best friend of mine who had passed away in the year 2005 18 march.she had entrusted her beloved boyfriend to me and want us to care for each other and love each other.During the past three mths, i have been asking myself do i really love him bcos there are too much difference in our education level,family background etc although his family did not say anything in fact they are very supportive and encourage me to start a relation with their son i obey. We start off our relationship in feb 3 2006 it was chinese new year until now.During that period many a times i thought of breaking up with him and ask him to find another girl who is much better than me but i couldn't tell him bcos i cannot bear to see him fallen into depression neither do i want to see him feeling rejected and sad bcos he had jus lost someone who he is deeply in love with and at that time what he need most was friend support and encouragement i couldn't bear to see him looking sad and directionless moreover the girl that he love was my best friend so i did not say anything to him.I treated this relationship as a mere friendship a close guy friend who can chat with.But evrything change, it was his admission in hospital due to dengue fever and his life was in danger and it was at that moment when i heard about this shocking news my heart turn cold, i was scared and worried cos i do not wish to lost him, it was then i realized that i had fallen in love with him and he had become part of my life and i couldn't bear to lose him, i realised that how imnportant he is to me not bcos of the things he had done for me but the true love that he showed me had soften my heart.I Love You Dear! Take Care

Hmmm.............Times Really Flies

2006-01-15T00:36:00.000-08:00

Hmmm............times really flies it already the middle of January 2006.Two more weeks Lunar New Year is just round the corner.A year had passed and many things had happened in 2005 some good and some bad.Well,whatever it is, everything was over and I thank God for blessing my family and me for the whole year of 2005 although there were some incidents that taken place that had cause much trouble for my parents especially my mum Going through all this trials and sadness God had taught me to me strong and faithful and trust in him for every situations that happened as that was part of His plan. God has showed me my weaknesses and these made me to be more relaying on him in everything I do.A year had gone though it was tough for me but God has show me His Faithfulness. I was glad that I could stand up again to face my new challenges even though I had quit school because of my health problem. I thank God for directing me to my new path. I am now teaching in YMCA Student Care and I have been there for 3 mths and everything is good.Amen!Thank God!As a teacher in student care i have many things to learn and I feel good so pray that God would continued to show and direct me in whatever things I do and also filled me with knowledge and wisdom in teachings. Finally, I pray that God will shower my family and me with Hs unfailling Love and Mercy unto my family and me.I also pray that God will bless my family throughout the year 2006.I pray all this in his most precisous name Amen!

Rest Day For Me

2005-11-08T14:05:00.000-08:00

It had been a long time since my last post on blog. Recently many changes had taken in my life. I'm no longer studying in ITE cos I couldn't take the stress and i fell into depression, it had been quite a sad period for me. It took me almost a month to consider whether to quit school or stay on. After many weeks of counselling and advice from Dr, i finally make a hard decision that i want to quit school i cried i felt the pain in my heart i was lost but through God's grace and mercy on me i pull up self up again.It was through HIS grace and mercy HE lead me into a new chapter of my life. Through God's grace it was fast that i was able to find a job with my Certificate Of Pre-School Teaching.After going through so much, finally i was able to see the light of my future. I am now working in YMCA Student Care in Woodlands. IAm enjoying my work although sometimes might get some feedback on my work but i believe that is good cos it's help me to improve on my work. I thank God for leading me into such environment where all the staff share their responsiblities among each other and the love they show to each other.Dear heavenly father, thank you for being with me throughout the darkest moment in my life , thank You for not forsaken me It is through you that i find joy , peace, happiness. Thank You for being my stronghold You are indeed my rock in time of trouble.Father, thanks for blessing me. Father , you are my everything I trust in you.I believe that being a teacher is a calling from you and i pray that you will guide me in my work, during my worshipping time with the students you will always be in my presence. Thank You! Amen.

Rejocie And Happy

2005-06-25T18:23:00.000-07:00

School had started and one week has gone. I like my school very much my teachers and friends are all very friendly and humourous.Though a bit feeling tired cos have to wake up early than usual but looking forward to go to school every day.I really thank God for placing me in this environment. I could feel his presence with me whenever i am in school.I thank God for blessing me with good friends and teacher father thanks for answering my prayer.Next God i also pray that u would use me to share ur words to friends who are not christian so that i can bring them into ur kingdom.Well, i adapting well to the environment and thank god for being me and guiding me.

Happy

2005-05-31T15:20:00.000-07:00

This few days i'm feeling happy cos the unwanted vocies is fading away from me (thank God for taking away the unwanted vocies from me) I 'm getting prepare for the school ti start feeling very excied finally stepping into the school environment again after leaving school for 4 years.Recently, i was doing my bible study i am touch by what god had spoken to me.i just worried about my school stuff and i was quite disstracted and could not forcus on God's word but God's was kind to me He gave me a verse from Roman8:39 "neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of GOd that is in Christ Jesus Our Lord." when i read the verse i was very happy because i know that whatever situation i an in now God know how i feel and he will not foresake me as nothing in the world can separate me from Him.Dear jesus thanks for your great love to me! Yesterday, iwent out with my cousin(Siyu) we went somerset actually i went there to change my cd and buy Iris's bday present from Mount Zion then we went for lunch at BK on the way we met Frankie, Bethia and her friend we chit for a while and then we went of..After lunch we went home cos my cousin i have to go back to rush her project.Anyway it was a great time we had cos we have not have lunch together for a long time.Hope to meet again.

Worried

2005-05-18T14:13:00.000-07:00

This few weeks I'm quite worried about my condition and i don't wish that my illness is back again.Recently' i 've been hearing vocies that really disturbed and discouraged me.I know that these vocies come from the devils who don't allow me to walk close with jesus. I tried to ignored the vocies but it is still there."dear heavenly father i pray that you would protect me against any evil distraction that does not come from you, father i pray that you will take away the unwanted vocies that i heard which is not from you, father i only want to hear from u and you only cos the unwanted vocies really disturbed amd made me very depressed, father i pray all this in your most precious name Amen!"I really do not want this to happen to me again cos it took me a very long jounrey to recover and stand on my feet again.I really do not want these unwanted vocies to distract and discourage me cos i really put in a lot of effort through God's strength and grace that i gain back my confidence and ready to go back to the school environment to study.I come thus far and i really do not wish that i fall into depression again.I really do not want the same thing to happen again.

Happy and Relaxation Day

2005-05-16T14:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday CG outing was fun. After the youth service we went to Caleb's house.When we reach there , it was quite hot but we enjoy the sun.Some of them were playing cards and chng yi and bethia were studying over there while grace , yoke yee , frankie and kun quan went swimming as for me i sat beside the pool and enjoying the sun and chitting with them.At around 4 chng yi left for campcom meeting and we also left the place after awhile cos the guys were going for a scorccer matah at sembawang.As fore me went i went home for a while.Later, in the evening we went to chng yi 's place for dinner cos it was her bday.We have ba ku teh. we had alots of fun at chng yi's place.All of us left at around 9 plus.We enjoy ourselves very much.

Don't Be Afriad God Is There With U

2005-05-11T14:20:00.000-07:00

Last sat we had our E.S.P meeting.During BS we were sharing about our quiet time topic and i share this is about Don't Be Afriad from Daily bread reading from Isaiah 12.. I think it is very true for us christian not to be afriad cos "the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world " and is very true bcos God had already had a plan for us in his image and he knows what is the best for us and when you pray according to his will he will answer ur prayer although sometime He will not answer immediately.Sometime in life we might think that we can do many things without God's presence and that is the time where we start to worry and get depressed that not what God wants.There are many thing in the world that we can 't controlled but only God the Creator of the Universe has controlled over them so we had nothing to be afriad or worry bcos we had a God who knows us in and out.Surrender and Trust in God he will bless U with what u need in life Give Thanks To Him And Glorify His name.Don't Be Afraid GOd IS There With U All The TIme!There is nothing in the world that is too diffcult for God!

Rainy Day

2005-05-08T23:53:00.000-07:00

It had been a long time since i last update my blog.It sunday morning i woke up early cos going to have breakfast with my grandma.It rian very heavily.We went to Ang Mio Kio Central, After breakfast,we went to do some marketing.I did not attend church service that morning cos was too tired and came back and sleep.Later. in the afternoon, iwent to church for cg.It was fun,we end quite early.then i hang around in church for a while.In the evening, i went to meet Serene at Bishan to get her bday present.After getting her present we went back.As for me i went to catch a movie at cathay. I watched KIngdom Of Heaven.It 's a nice show.

My 21st Birthday

2005-03-25T19:25:00.000-08:00

Today is my 21st bday it is also good friday.In the morning i went to church the service is very meaningful as it remind us of our mighty God who had die for us on the cross.After service my cg went to east coast park for outing i did not go as the weather is too hot.I do not know what had happened to me this few days, i tend to get very irritated easily and feel very frustrate it got worse if i'm at home for too long.I pray that God would cooled me down with his words and show me ways of venting my temper.Ha ha.........i very excited about this sunday cos i'm going to be baptise.Another thing that i happy about is that God had answered my prayer i was given a place in Bishan ITE,soon i will be going back to school hurray!This year bday is the most memorable one that i ever had.

Hmmm.....Nice Weather

2005-03-03T13:35:00.000-08:00

Hmmm, next sat i'll be celebrating my 21st birthday.Suddenly i felt very lost and uncertain though i know i have surrender everything to God but i still feel a little worry.Looking back,i have wasted my year and have not accomplish any of my goal. Sometimes i really feel very lousy of myself which i know i shouldn't feel this way. As i know i going back to study i wish that this time i will success in my study if not i really don't know how to face my family members.As i end my teenagehood and step into the adulthood there are a lot of things i have to learn so i pray that God will guide me and give me the strength, knowledge, wisdom in everything i do and i also pray that god will bless my family members with good health and in his hand everything is taken care.Amen.Anyway, i looking forward for next sat party

A Fine Day

2005-03-01T13:40:00.000-08:00

Yesterday i went out with my mother. she went to renew her passport.After that,she accompany me go Bishan cos i going to ITE To register for course but when i reach there the person in charge ask me to go cpf board to apply for singpass in order to apply course.Den both us went there it was a long quene after i got the pass i went back to ITE again.When i reach ITE it suddenly rain like cats and dogs the person in charge ask me to logon to JIS cos i was a past yrs sch leaver den i have to wait for 6 hrs b4 i can register so we went back home.Tis morning i wake up very early to check my application was able to register for the course i wan i 'm very happy i submit all my application now i waiting for the result it will be on 23 march. I hope i can get into Bishan ITE.

Tired And Sian Day

2005-02-21T10:26:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went to church very early cos have baptism course. E course quite interesting. After tat i went for service. E the sermon was quite interesting cos it teaches us how to have faith and trust in god and never put god in test.After service, i join my cg for lunch i did not eat anything cos going to meet my parent later.We went back to church together later, i left the church with Iris we did not attend cg that day.I went to meet my parent at orchard and we went to visit a friend. I was out the whole day feeling very tired and Sian nothing to eat at home.

A Hot Sunny Friday Afternoon

2005-02-18T14:05:00.000-08:00

Haiz.time flies very fast chinese new year coming to the end. And den abt three moe weeks i 'll be celebrating my 21st bday feel so old.Jus finish watching vcd (Korean Drama) like the show very much very touching.Brought back the old memories that i have spent with Alan.Anyway, going to see Dr later den maybe will go for job interview later if there is time.Tonite will be a little busy cos have to prepare for tmr dinner my cg members are coming haha very excited cos can see my dreamboy heehee ruixin will be coming over too later going to her place to borrow chairs.Looking forward for tmr dinner hope it will be a enjoyable one.yeah!

Thanks For Couselling Me

2005-02-10T00:49:00.000-08:00

Second day of chinese new year!Jus got scolding from my bro amd parents.I felt very sad i thought i have chosen the right path but i was wrong no one seem to support my decision except sugu family,That nite i got scolding again i could not controlled my tears anymore i cried i felt like ending myself y is it that my bro keep reminding me abt the thing that happened 3 yrs back dun they know that it take me a long time to walk out from that miserable hole.I cried through out the nite.Luckily ruixin was there to console me although she is in jb.U are a great friend indeed.Thanks for listening to all suffering and woes. Another person is pris.thank you.Without u all calling me that nite i migjht have ended myself. Thanks for lending me ur ears.