Thanks Giving and Reflection

Wow it's already May now and half the year is gone!This show that times really flies and it show that how long i never write my blog. Well here's the updates of my particulars. During this half a year lots of things had happened and there is both happy and sad ones. But the one that i can remember one are not much as more sad things happened than good one. Two months ago i had not been sleeping well rather say that i never sleep at all and things got worse i had a relapsed from depression and i was very stress dealing with works and studies really made me feel very stress up. Due to this issue i decided to resign from my work and do other things. At first i was worry about my income as i'm not working and there was lots of things in my mind but i really thank God for his amazing work that he had done in my life during that toughest time he had actually opened up another way for me. During my resting period in April my aunty told me that Kumon was looking for assistant and marker so i went to the one that was near place and i went for interview. Surprisingly after i went to the interview i recevied call from the centre chief instuctor and i was accepted i was happy all thanks to the great creator of our lord Jesus Christ for his grace and mercy through this incident i have greater faith in Him and trust that He will use me to do greater work for his Kingdom. Dear heavenly father thanks for the things that you have blessed me and also your promises and assurance that i'm able to walk out from the darkness and trusting you that you will be with me in whatever things i do. Amen !

Depression

It's has been a long time since my last blog.Recently many things have happenned and it kinda make me feel sad. Three weeks ago i have a relapse on my depression condition and due to my condition i had to stop work for a mth so i have no other way i resigned and rest at home. Although things seem to look rather hopeless , i still would say that our Almighty God is really working in my life . Praise the Lord! I have left my previous job and the next moment i found a job at Kumon and i am working there as a marker and best of all it's near my place. God is really Great and He knows what i want.

Stress

It' had been a month since i resigned from my work.Things started to get out of control i have no income coming and my expense is going up so many bills to handle ( What's to do) very depressed.Sent out almost 10 resume but no calls from them only a few got back but the job don't suit me.on top of it seeing my parent especially my mum had to fork out money for monthly medical bill really make my heartache cos all her earning she has, had given almost half tomy medical expenses and she left nothing for herself and this really made me very sad.How i wished i can handle this medical bill myself!I'm getting more and more irritated cos couldn't find job and all the endless bills had to pay really made me very stress and sad.Worst still my parents cannot understand me and keep thinking that i not looking for job this really made very angry.Almost quarral with my mum everyday i really hope this will end soon.Hope that i will can a job soon with the help from NorthWest CDC.Really hope that everything will end soon.Praying hard!

Resting Period

Finally got discharge from hospital now on 3 weeks MC.During my stay in hospital i had been thinking of a solution whether to stay on in my job or resigned and at last i decide to quite the job and look for the other.Hope everything will turn out fine for me.

Hospitalisation

It's had been a long time since i last blog.I was admitted to hospital yesterday due to gastric pain.It had been a long time since i was admitted again with the same problem.I'm feeling distress about my work and health.I had just started on my new job not long and now i'm laying in hospital( not knowing when i will be discharging) VERY STRESS! Worry about my job cos DCM told me that i have to leave the job if i never brushed up my computer skill within 2 weeks how can no one coaching also everyday have so much work to do how to learn everyone busy with their work and i 'm trying my best to learn how can i learnt everything within 2 weeks that's impossible!Really very frustrated.Don't know whether to resigned or stay on.HUh just let it be can't think of so many things now.Well, now just want to recover fast and get discharge.

A Time Of Reflection

Hmm..............it has been a loong time since i last blog.Well many things had happened during the past five months, ever since i had a failure in relationship i never thought of going into any relationship anymore until i meet him.I do not know whether our relationship is a stable one or jus another crush with one another.He is a NUS grad doing medicine.Our relationship is very complicated it happen because of a best friend of mine who had passed away in the year 2005 18 march.she had entrusted her beloved boyfriend to me and want us to care for each other and love each other.During the past three mths, i have been asking myself do i really love him bcos there are too much difference in our education level,family background etc although his family did not say anything in fact they are very supportive and encourage me to start a relation with their son i obey. We start off our relationship in feb 3 2006 it was chinese new year until now.During that period many a times i thought of breaking up with him and ask him to find another girl who is much better than me but i couldn't tell him bcos i cannot bear to see him fallen into depression neither do i want to see him feeling rejected and sad bcos he had jus lost someone who he is deeply in love with and at that time what he need most was friend support and encouragement i couldn't bear to see him looking sad and directionless moreover the girl that he love was my best friend so i did not say anything to him.I treated this relationship as a mere friendship a close guy friend who can chat with.But evrything change, it was his admission in hospital due to dengue fever and his life was in danger and it was at that moment when i heard about this shocking news my heart turn cold, i was scared and worried cos i do not wish to lost him, it was then i realized that i had fallen in love with him and he had become part of my life and i couldn't bear to lose him, i realised that how imnportant he is to me not bcos of the things he had done for me but the true love that he showed me had soften my heart.I Love You Dear! Take Care

Hmmm.............Times Really Flies

Hmmm............times really flies it already the middle of January 2006.Two more weeks Lunar New Year is just round the corner.A year had passed and many things had happened in 2005 some good and some bad.Well,whatever it is, everything was over and I thank God for blessing my family and me for the whole year of 2005 although there were some incidents that taken place that had cause much trouble for my parents especially my mum Going through all this trials and sadness God had taught me to me strong and faithful and trust in him for every situations that happened as that was part of His plan. God has showed me my weaknesses and these made me to be more relaying on him in everything I do.A year had gone though it was tough for me but God has show me His Faithfulness. I was glad that I could stand up again to face my new challenges even though I had quit school because of my health problem. I thank God for directing me to my new path. I am now teaching in YMCA Student Care and I have been there for 3 mths and everything is good.Amen!Thank God!As a teacher in student care i have many things to learn and I feel good so pray that God would continued to show and direct me in whatever things I do and also filled me with knowledge and wisdom in teachings. Finally, I pray that God will shower my family and me with Hs unfailling Love and Mercy unto my family and me.I also pray that God will bless my family throughout the year 2006.I pray all this in his most precisous name Amen!