A Time Of Reflection

Hmm..............it has been a loong time since i last blog.Well many things had happened during the past five months, ever since i had a failure in relationship i never thought of going into any relationship anymore until i meet him.I do not know whether our relationship is a stable one or jus another crush with one another.He is a NUS grad doing medicine.Our relationship is very complicated it happen because of a best friend of mine who had passed away in the year 2005 18 march.she had entrusted her beloved boyfriend to me and want us to care for each other and love each other.During the past three mths, i have been asking myself do i really love him bcos there are too much difference in our education level,family background etc although his family did not say anything in fact they are very supportive and encourage me to start a relation with their son i obey. We start off our relationship in feb 3 2006 it was chinese new year until now.During that period many a times i thought of breaking up with him and ask him to find another girl who is much better than me but i couldn't tell him bcos i cannot bear to see him fallen into depression neither do i want to see him feeling rejected and sad bcos he had jus lost someone who he is deeply in love with and at that time what he need most was friend support and encouragement i couldn't bear to see him looking sad and directionless moreover the girl that he love was my best friend so i did not say anything to him.I treated this relationship as a mere friendship a close guy friend who can chat with.But evrything change, it was his admission in hospital due to dengue fever and his life was in danger and it was at that moment when i heard about this shocking news my heart turn cold, i was scared and worried cos i do not wish to lost him, it was then i realized that i had fallen in love with him and he had become part of my life and i couldn't bear to lose him, i realised that how imnportant he is to me not bcos of the things he had done for me but the true love that he showed me had soften my heart.I Love You Dear! Take Care